Runaway....

Today I ride my bike like a flash light

I let the wind flew away this hurt

I let the dust wiped away my tears

I let the rain washed my burning love

I let the buzzing of street close my ears from your words

I rush and rush and rush just to runaway from something

I focused my eyes to turned my world

I sang a song so loudly just to heal this broken heart

Look at my life, just like a pieces fallen into a wrong place

U gave me the world then u took it all away

U left everything but yesterday

The spaces of my heart for u is tearing me apart now

Today I’m almost lost my mind thinking of u

But I’m sure, now I run to something

Something different of me…

Today’s 25^th Oct I made up my mind,

I’ll erase u from my mind

To U “L” I’ll be a different person…

BLEEDING.........

u make this eyes bleeding with the sickness

u took this heart into a river of fire

u burn this skin with  the touch of a liar

u stop this heartbeat with your broken arrow

u torn this soul be a pieces

"i'm bleeding...i'm bleeding..."

"someone save me..."

is this what u want, seeing me suffers???

bleeding everywhere, scars in anywhere of my body n soul

STOP....

ENOUGH...

Noo...i'm stronger that u thought....

i have a blood of my brother who always can survive in every

situation no matter how bleeding he's hurt until the end of his life

No more hurt, No more tears, No more sick, No more bleeding, No more fall

I'm done...It's time for me to stand up...

This hurt is gonna be the power of my raising

I'm a ZERO now, but you'll see i'm gonna be a THOUSAND

Darker Shade of Me

It's a lonely way living on my own,
I never thought that I would be this far from all I ever imagine before,
I gave you all the love in me but love is blind and now I see,
The fool I've been believing you loved me,

I know you'll be back again when you feel the cold,
And the truth will find you out for all the lies you sold,
Chase the rainbows you can find 'cos you've gone too far this time,
The fool I've been believing you were mine

Now what am I supposed to do?
Do you feel this pain?
Do you remember the promises you made?
Let's hope there's no a day when your sky's gonna rain...
I'm sure you'll come running and back to me again
Sorry is not a big deal but the hardest is when we said "I'm sorry" and "I forgive u"
when the heart is burn up with the madness...

A Monologue

It's about love...A lovers who are helpless against tradition. their right to be loved and to love the wheels run over conceit of a value that had long faded.

When i was so young my mom always sang the song about love is like a butterfly alighting wherever it wants. When I was growing up, I said to my mom "Yes love is indeed like a butterfly, alighting on the go just like me now who are in love" then my mom so delightful said "ooo great i'm gonna have a grand child...." "noo mom, it won't be happen!"

For the sake of modesty holds the value of tradition, my mother collapsed unconscious. I scrabbled to find a new stand. my efforts completely meaningless, I die and become worm on mulberry leaves.

I became a cocoon. I want to be a butterfly, because love is like a butterfly the butterfly is like love, alighting wherever he/she wants. entrust happiness at heart he/she loved.

I transformed into little butterfly protruding from the cocoon. I tried both joyous flutter of wings, flying among the flowers smile. The joy of the world so dazzling. I don't realize the world want me to dance with other butterflies, but I chose to set in place my feet on top of a sprig of chrysanthemums proletarian surrounded by thorny bushes. But the chrysanthemums were greeted with compassion.

Love, if you never let it test the loyalty of brave, you'll never look the greatness. then only silence is what will you reap. you think you glorify love, but you use it for your selfishness, you are destroying the name of love for my happiness petals.

BUT TRUE LOVE WILL NEVER LOSE......

Many of yearning love, true love is never disappointing. But the tradition and majesty of a value engineering heartbreaking love-stricken. 

Your nails tore my pair of wings that is not created to fight. Just like Romeo and Juliet together I had fallen under your feet. from where we are experiencing the glory of love has degenerated, your face is not visible. Your chest swelled too high blocking my gaze.

But you also do not realize what you have done. In the name of tradition, the value of divine majesty, material wealth and you destroy the value of our normality. what can we do? we never understood why until the end of time ...., maybe

I was a small sprig of chrysanthemums, the holy crown of the bud unfolds. Beautiful butterfly landed its little legs, happily swinging in the wind finger jokes. Solar smiled from his throne in the eastern horizon, when its rays lighting, the clumps trying shaded by an umbrella of leaves. 

In which the water is crystal clear river flowing refresh our love. Until you come up with a piece of shabby edict. 

Is there something wrong with us? No one dared to answer !!!

My little petals spilled on land earth crying. So its sobbed through its ​​tears washed away my little petals and butterfly wings torn off.

Our love story will continue to flow even unstoppable. Because we are real. Because only the power of love that can stop the hypocritical behavior. Because the strength is only going to be miserable for a moment, because only eternal love and knows no tradition of conditions. 

HURT SO BAD...

I've never met somebody that does what you do

Takes my emotions and make each one fell brand new

Trouble is there is someone been here in my heart

So now I've got to put an end to what I've been dying to start

Sounds like it should be easy but it's just so hard

We've got to come to our senses before we go too far

I want you but I can't have you

So sad so true

Got to be careful what you wish for cos this could never come true

I can't help seeing how it could be

I close my eyes and you're here next to me

I'm helplessly watching us start to fade

And love slip away

And it wouldn't hurt so bad if it didn't feel so good

You know I would be with you if there was anyway I ever could

You know I wouldn't miss your touch if I didn't want it so much

I don't want to go but I should

WHY????

And now , I know that I was wrong
You never really cared for me all along
And with you every dream I had was all it was , ain't that the fact

So I hold my head deep in my hands
I'm lost at sea no sign of land
I never knew what love could cost
No-one could know how much I've lost
 

I can't go on now that you've gone
There's nothing left inside
I'll never understand why you had to lie
It's not enough to say you love
And then just say goodbye
I'll never break these chains
Theres no where to hide
Why did you have to lie?

And now that every hope has gone
I've got to find the strength to carry on
Alone , much more than before
I've given everything , theres nothing more

Why does it hurt so much when theres nothing I can do?
Why do I hate myself 'coz I can't stop loving you?
Now my life is empty
All I have is pain
I can't forget you
Why couldn't you have stayed?

Why did you have to lie?

The Last Memory...

U gave me a new look
U gave me a new vision
U gave me a new world that I haven’t touched
U gave me a new spirit, a courage
To know myself better than before
To discover my potential inside
To explore all the color in this world
U make me feel different
U make me thought
U make me strong to get over my life
U had wrote the storyline in my life
Be apart of my journey
Be apart to fill my emptiness
Maybe u never know about how I fell
Maybe u never look my way to made u a special one in my heart
Maybe I’m just a little thing on your adventure
I know who I’m, I know who u are
I know we just like land and sky high
But I’m always hope that one day I can touch your face
To figure out and make the art in my soul
Another night I was dreamed that u into my life
Share the laugh and the joy
But last night I was dreamed u walk away from me
I try to run looking for u but u so fast gone in the dark of night
I just scream and scream called your name
But u never exist, till I wake up…
Now I realize that I have to let u go in my mind, in my dream, in my memory
The last shot u see your smile for once again just being my hopeless
This is the last words to tell about u
This is the last goodbye till GOD send our destiny
This is the last memory that I have erase….
Always have u deep down on my heart my GC….

About Love

The only real voyage of discovery consist not in seeking new landscape, but in having new eyes…
(Marcel Proust)

For one human being to love another; that is perhaps the most difficult of all our tasks…the work for which all other work is but preparation
(Rainer Maria Rilke)

UNTITLED

I saw u move through that gate
i heard that starting your steps away
I looked up to shadow disappeared at the end of the crossing
You're gone now, but not forgotten
I still can hear your voice
I still can remember every story, and all of the words
and your smile is a perfect art when emptiness wrestle my soul
I can't say this to your face
I’m not sure that u still can hear me or no
And now I’m puzzled, so lost
I’m missing u like crazy…
Now I’m realize that I’m so blessed to knew u in my life
My soul screaming out just want to tell u all the feeling
I had the time to tell you but no..no..never..
I never imagine how to face the day when I tell the truth
even though all the words will come to haunt me
In my darkest hour I tell myself that I'll see you again someday and honestly with my feeling

FIXING A BROKEN HEART

there was nothing to say the day I left
just filled the suitcase full of regrets
I hailed the taxi in the rain
looking for some place to ease the pain
then like an answer prayed
I turn around and found u there
you really know where to start
fixing a broken heart
you really know what to do
your emotional tools can cure any fool
whose dreams have broken apart
now I don’t understand what I’m going through
there must be a plan that led me to you
because the hurt just disappears
in every moment that you are near
just like an answered prayer
you make the loneliness easy to bear
soon the rain will stop falling
and I’ll forget the past ‘cause here we are last

(by : INDECENT  OBSESSION)

GOLDEN CREATURE

Perfect day, darken cold, so lonesome
I thought I was the one, but there’s another creature across my side
Hmmm….so lovely, nice smile, gentle move
And suddenly the corner of your eyes right snap to mine
Step by step we’re getting closer
And the first time of sound it was like an angle
So softly voices
U told me everything about your adventure
About your journey, your talent
It seems so perfect human
And I just have ear that can buy
Like a chemistry reaction inside my body, I fell so burning up
So inspired, so excited, so thought
Only 12 hour our journey, u gave me another world that change my view
Only 12 hour u make me so missing u…
Hope to see u again
And I know I’ll see u again GOLDEN CREATURE

Dark Soul

So loudly everywhere
All voices surrounding my ear
Many different colors sighting on my eyes
But there’s one color attraction my look
I try to reach u
I call u to get close to me
But u avoids me, abandon me
I’m coming over u
But there’s a strong glasses wall that I can’t fight
I send u the SOS sign
But u still don’t care it
U standing there, Talking everywhere
Seeing anywhere, But me…
Can’t u see me dark soul?
Can’t u hear me…
Why don’t u?
Or u don’t want to try
U don’t even notice my shadow
Maybe I’m hiding, but I’m hiding in bright place
I’m standing here, wait for u
I’ll show u my dark side
I’ll show u my different color

CLOSE YOUR EYES....

Close your eyes when u sleep
Close your eyes when u cry
Close your eyes when u imagine something
Why???
Because all the beautiful things in this world was not seeing
And once again close your eyes after u read it…and remain this…
Sometimes we feel weird
When we find someone with her/his own unique and its click with us, we feel something weird too
We just like fall into something and it’s called LOVE
There’s a lot of things that we can’t let go
So many people that we don’t want to leave
But it’s not the end of the world when u have to release
It’s the beginning
The happiness will come to them who had been crying, hurting, searching and trying
Because they had faced and appreciated the people who had touch their lifes
BRAVE HEART, GREATEST LOVE…
Is when your tears go out and still care of her/him
Is when she/he doesn’t care about u but u still waiting for her/him patiently
Is when she/he begins to love someone else and u smile and say “I’m happy for u”
If love doesn’t worth just flight your wing and fly away to the sky
Maybe u find and lost love
But when love is burning to die, u don’t have to come with it
The strong man is not who always win but who is standing still when their she/he falls
In our life we learn about our self, and realize that there must be no REGRET just an appreciation of every choice that we had made of
TRUE FRIENDS…
Understand when u say “I forget”
Still waiting when u say “wait a moment”
Stand there when u say “leave me alone!”
Open the door before u knock and say “can I come in?”
TO LOVE…
Is not how to forget but how to forgive
Is not how to hear but how to understand
Is not what u see but what u feel
Is not how to release but how to hang on
More dangerous to hide a tear inside your heart than drop it through your eyes
The tears which come through your eyes can wipe it dry but the hiding tears just leave the scars and never be healed
Sometimes we lost our love but we still win because we have made it to love someone more than our self
There will come a time when we have to stop loving someone, it’s not because she/he stops loving us, but because we realize that she/he will be happier if we release her/him
When u really love someone, don’t let her/him go but fight for her/him
Don’t believe that releasing means u really love someone, but fight for your true love
It’s better to wait someone appropriate
Sometime people that u really love was someone who hurt u so deeply
Sometime friend who always hug u, cry with u, and there for u is love that u never realize….

LOST

I will make me a willow cabin at your gate
and call upon my soul within the house
I will write loyal cantons of condemned love
and sing them loud even in the dead of night
I will hallo your name to the reverberate hills
and make babbling gossip of the air cry out
I rush in to the secret house……………..

Shall I abide in this dull world which in thy absence is not better than a sty?
The crown of the earth doth melt and there’s nothing left remarkable beneath the visiting moon

LOVE is….it just is
and nothing you can say can make it go away
because it is the point of why we are here
it is the highest point and once you are up there
looking down on everyone else you’re there forever
because if you’ll move, you’ll fall

from English Literature

love sh*t...

why LOVE can make peace of the world?
why everyone must not to stop looking for LOVE?
why LOVE sometime just like a rubbish which u can find in any place that u never thought before?
why LOVE can burn the cold blood?
why LOVE can make a heart beat so fast?
why LOVE came into our dream like a ghost?
why LOVE can make someone soul so freezing when its touch by a stranger?
but why LOVE sometime's hurt?
why LOVE sometime make u sick?
ya...everyone like a crazy people when they're fall in LOVE
LOVE is the inspiration to color our live, to make a beautiful scratch, to make a perfect art of someone face...
but does it worth when the heart begin freeze and broke to a million things???

Life Is Sort

"Life is short, don't waste time worrying about what people think of you. Hold on to the ones that care, in the end they will be the only ones there.” 

pemikiran yang kemudian menjadi spirit hidup terbaik q...kadang qta memang harus bergelut dengan waktu, berlomba dengan zaman, bahkan kadang terlena dengan semua hal yang menyangkut dunia sampai lupa bahwa qta kan meninggalkan semua yang telah dimiliki di dunia ini. orang-orang tercinta, terkasihi, harta, tahta semua hanya tinggal kenangan. 

Wake UP!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Bangun Teman!!!! Bangun Sahabat!!!!

Qta gerakan hati qta!!! JANGAN sampai apa yang tlah qta miliki sekarang menjadi sia-sia di masa akan datang!!!

Benar kata seseorang "Jangan mencari orang yang mengatakan 'Ku kan mencintaimu seumur hidup ku', tapi carilah orang yang mengatakan 'Ku kan mencintaimu seumur hidupmu'"????

Lho koq??!!

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